Friday, 27 September 2013

Winter Warmers

It's Friday!! 

I know it's a tad early for Christmas & Winter stuff but it sure is getting colder here in London so I thought I'd share a few bits and pieces I've been stocking up on for the longer evenings that are creeping in. I went to Sainsburys to do some food shopping yesterday and I was happily greeted with these mince pies which made me unbelievably excited! So like a child, I pranced around the store sniffing candles and over indulged in a few winter warmers, as I like to call them! 

There's nothing better than coming home after a lecture in London's freezing snow and having a hot port and mince pie with lots of cream. Here's my recipe for making hot port and a few other bits I picked up.

My Hot Port Recipe 

I love a nice strong flavoured one but of course not everyone does. It's all about personal preference, add and take away bits you do or don't like to make yourself the perfect port! 

  • Half a glass of Port    
  • Half a glass of hot water (I use boiling)   
  • Half a teaspoon of brown sugar                      
  • A slice of lemon                                                
  • And finally, some cloves to suit your taste!


                                                  



                                              Enjoy! 

To be honest, I was a little sceptical of these mince pies but they're delicious! I usually stick one in the microwave for a couple of seconds and then put a nice dollop of cream or ice-cream on top. If I'm feeling extra indulgent I sprinkle some cinnamon over the cream for a little extra kick. My mother said she'll show me how to make mince pies this year so I'll blog it for you guys!
I got this Twinings 'Warming Camomile & Spiced Apple' tea. I've only had one cup of it but I liked it! I'm not sure about the 'Spiced' part but the apple flavor really comes through and smells amazing! I've only recently gotten into drinking a variety of teas and I'm glad I did, there's something really relaxing about having a cup of tea so having a couple to choose from is nice. 
As for this bag, it's just meant to give a little bit of a warm Autumnal. I got a present in it for my birthday and I've been storing some jewelry in it since.
                             

I've officially become and adult, I got a potted plant yesterday. I have no idea what it's called, maybe you can enlighten me? It's really nice though and gives the room a little pop of colour and some life! Now all I need to do is remember to water it, then maybe I can have a puppy..that's how it works right? 
                               


Have a great weekend!! 

Thursday, 26 September 2013

Autumn Makeup Haul

Heyy You!

So as you guys know, I went home to Ireland last week and got some goodies along the way! Some of them are repeats of things I already have, and others are new additions to my beauty/makeup collection. I generally wear the same shades of eyeshadow all year round and then I tend to change my look in Autumn/Winter with foundations, bronzer and more striking shades of lipstick. 


         
Johnsons Body Care
Catrice - My Red Card
Dior Eyeshadow - Swan
Maybelline Nail Varnish - Berry Fusion
Mac Lipglass - Oyster Girl
Nivea Sooth & Protect
17 Blusher - First Kiss
Maybelline Lipstick - Hollywood Red

               
These two really are separate ends of the cost scale, this MUA Eyeshadow palette is really nice for a smokey brown look, it's got a great consistency considering the price of it. This Dior - Swan eyeshadow is a great way to give your makeup a nice evening glow.

                   
I really love bright red and wine coloured lipsticks for this time of year. They give a nice warm tone to your face and of course for the festive season (sorry for mentioning that already, I have no self control). My skin is extremely sensitive and my lips are no exception unfortunately, so I have to use a lip balm when the weather starts to change or my lips crack, nice eh! I got this Nivea Soothe & Protect balm to try and prevent cracking and so far, so good. I like wearing this MAC Cremesheen Glass over my Inglot nude lipstick on nights out. Nude lipstick is a great look but I feel like wearing a lip gloss over it gives it a bit of a softer look.

                     
In the Summer I was wearing a lot of pastel colours which I personally don't love. I much prefer richer colours like red, navy and sometimes black with a nice tan and some gold jewelry.

                       
These are a few of the magazines I've been reading this month! I had 'Heat' and 'Gracia' on my plane journey and my sister got me this Irish magazine, 'U'. It's not often I get to read magazines with all the Uni work I have throughout the year and the endless pile of books I have to read so it's a real treat when I get to sit down and have a flick through a few of these! 

What new products have you guys been trying recently? Have a great weekend! 


Monday, 23 September 2013

Visiting Home


I just got back to London from a great week at home in Limerick. I went home to catch up with some friends and be spoilt and have my dinner made for me everyday by my wonderful chef, Mam! ;) I had such a great week and was actually a little sad to leave. I guess I'm pretty lucky that I can fly back easily as it's just a quick hop over the the Irish sea! It's such a big transition every time I go home getting used to having barely no internet connection, no people buzzing past your window all day and no shops nearby to just get out of the house. Though, it is nice to sometimes get away from all the hustle and bustle of the big city. I think living in such a built up city has given me a new found love for the beautiful countryside that I come from so I want to share some of that with you here!

I went on nights out with friends, went out for dinner with my sister once or twice and spent time with family, it was really nice! I got back to London yesterday, packed up everything in the house and moved today to a different flat with Alex. It's really nice but haven't had the energy to unpack everything after the long week of nights out, travelling and packing. I've been looking for some good blogs with some storage ideas to figure out what I'm going to do with everything. I've gathered up a few bags of clothes for the charity shop as I really can't really fit everything. I can't wait to get back to Uni and get a good routine going again and so I'm glad to have internet back now to keep up to date with you guys!

I went on a walk with my parents around our house and ended up taking some nature snaps! My Dad loves all kinds of plants so he pointed out lots of different tree types, berries and even some that are apparently used for winemaking! We went through the fields and walked along the Mulcair river which runs along the front of my house. I used to play there a lot when I was a child but I don't tend to get down there as much anymore as my needs are mostly fulfilled in a pub in the city!
Dad in a Field of Cows
We pick these blackberries every year along with bramley apples from our orchid and crab apple jelly from nearby fields and my parents make jam out of the berries and crab apples and tarts out of the apples. It's really nice to have homemade jam and tarts for dessert. I'll have to learn how to make it myself, as far as I'm aware it generally involves a LOT of sugar and some patience! 
Berries

Now that the Winter is coming (not a GOT reference!!) we've been collecting firewood which just so happened to make a nice picture! The one thing I really love about going home is having a nice big open fire to sit by in the evening and have copious amounts of tea in great company. There's just something nice about it and I think it reminds me a little bit of Christmas which I absolutely love! 



I went to a restaurant in Limerick called Marco Polo (amongst a few others) with my sister Diana after some shopping in town. I had never been and as it's her favourite restaurant she insisted we go and wow, I'm glad we did. The food was so good! I had this Clonakilty Black Pudding to start and Lasagna for my main course, it was so good I didn't actually get around to taking any more photos as I had it eaten before I realised! They also do really cool cocktails, it's definitely a good place to start off an evening out with friends before hitting the tiles!
Clonakilty Black Pudding
It's always great to go and catch up with friends and family. I went on lots of nights out involving lots of wine! Trawled the countryside and even made a jigsaw puzzle with my niece! 
Sunset Behind My House
What have you guys been up to this week? Also, if anyone has any storage ideas please let me know in the comments!

 

Thursday, 12 September 2013

House Hunting Advice

*Disclaimer - angry, grumpy girl rant in progress.

Big Enough To Fit A Bed?

I've been looking for a flat in London for the last few weeks before I start University again at the end of the month. I can safely say that dealing with estate agents has been a serious eye opener. Before anyone says it, yes, I'm sure that somewhere in the world there's an honest estate agent that has your best interests at heart, I just have yet to find one.

After much searching I decided on the area that I want to live in London and started approaching estate agents in the area. I gave them my monthly budget and set off into a dark journey that has really made me truly dislike the people that work in these agencies. 

Probably somewhat naively, I thought that using an estate agent to find a suitable place would make it really easy. Realistically, it made it so much more stressful purely because coincidence or not, every agency I dealt with were essentially complete cowboys!

After speaking to the first agent, he said he would show me a few places within budget no problem and that he had plenty of suitable properties. Before setting off I asked him the price of each - All except one were NOT within my budget. His excuse was that they would really be worth the extra £10/£20 a week - They weren't. I found a property I liked and tried to negotiate a price. I was told that in order to put a bid on the property (propose the price you are willing to pay monthly), that I would have to pay a deposit of two weeks’ rent, just for the agent to ask the landlord if he will accept the price you have bid.

Annoyed with the last guy for wasting my time, I tried another agency. I viewed a flat that I thought was perfect – It was within budget, nice, close to the tube station - great! When it came to asking the dreaded cost of the agency fees I was told that the agency fee is £180 and £100 + VAT for a reference check per person moving in! Now as if him saying '+ VAT' wasn't bloody suspicious enough - £120 for a reference check? No chance. 

I just cannot comprehend how there are no regulations on these agencies that are so well renowned for robbing people blind just because they can! I haven't been silly or unaware of the right questions to ask, there's just no way around these costs as they won't budge and you need somewhere, so you've no other options. 

Tips For House Hunting in London
Be Realistic
Money doesn't go very far in terms of renting in London so don't expect to get a flashy apartment at a bargain price! 

Negotiate 
Even if you think they won't budge on price, it's worth asking as there's nothing to lose!

If it looks too good to be true - it is!
Often when you look on sites like Gumtree for flats, people lie and put up photos that do not even slightly represent the reality of the room/apartment.

Don't be rushed
Don't let anyone hurry your decision, if they say someone else is going to take the property if you don't - let them. In my experience, these guys are great at pressure selling and flogging lies in a friendly, believable tone. 

Read it Right
When you've been given a license agreement make sure you sit down and read it and have someone else re-read it for you so you don't miss anything. Make sure there’s no shady wording or small print that locks you into a contract that you can't get out of. I know there can be multiple pages but take your time and read it slowly. If you are uncomfortable with any of the wording on the contract ask them to change it and reprint a license. 

Living with Friends
Make sure that you have a separate contract to the people you live with if you live in a shared house, otherwise if they suddenly move out you'll get lumped with their rent.

Ask Questions
I know that sounds silly but if you're unsure, do ask. Just like anything, people working in the letting sector use different terminology to make something simple sound better – Also, agencies are there as a service for you and given you’re paying them so much for this service, you should get all the info you can!

Receipts
Get one for EVERYTHING! If you pay a penny, make sure you get a receipt. If they charge you for anything including external company costs, for example, a reference check or any bills make sure they give you a receipt from the company and not their own one.

Get Your Deposit Back
Make sure that before you move in the landlord or agency write up an inventory of the property for you including pictures and details of any damage that was there prior to you moving in. Nothing is too small to report be it a tea stain or a spot on the carpet, make sure they have noted that it wasn't you - otherwise, bye bye deposit. Being ripped off triggers the same part of the brain as pain, so don't give them a chance to catch you out.

Narrow Down Your Search
  • Have a budget worked out and don't forget to add bills/internet/council tax
  • Don't be dragged to somewhere out of your price range because an agent thinks it's worth it for you. Stick to your guns. 
  • 'Cosy', 'cute', 'airy' = Not fit for human.
  • If someone specifies that they want a cute Croatian 20 year old...just don't. 
  • If someone specifies that they would prefer a clean, gay, vegan, quiet, like minded person who can stand on their head and goes to pilates four times a week, they're probably a pain!
  • Don't pay any money until you've been to the property and feel 100% comfortable with it.



Happy Hunting!  

Tuesday, 10 September 2013

University Survival Guide

In keeping with my last post on moving away from home I decided to share some things that have made my time in University a lot easier!


Share With Each Other
If you live in halls of residence or even a flat share with a few people sharing cooking can really save you a lot of time and money. I really didn't realise how lucky I was to have my dinners made for me almost every day when I lived at home until I moved and had to fend for myself. If there are four people in the house, each person takes a turn at cooking for everyone for one night (Monday to Thursday) and then everyone fends for themselves for the other three days of the week. It means the kitchen isn't always chaotic with everyone fighting for the oven and you can even turn it into your very own 'Come Dine with me' to add a little bit of fun!

Money Jar
If there are a few of you sharing a kitchen/living room, start a little money jar (a ‘piggy bank’ even!) that everyone throws their loose change into every week or so. If there are four or five of you living together this is £4 or £5 that you can put towards buying washing up liquid, sponges, toilet cleaner or any cleaning products you all need. It means you don't have to steal someone else’s stuff if you run out because you've all put money towards buying them. Also, no excuses for not washing your dishes!

Clean Up After Yourself
Often Uni accommodation isn't the biggest, most glamorous place in the world and in my experience, there was only ever one communal area - the kitchen! If everyone just does their bit and bothers to clean up after themselves it really will make the house a happier place. Arguing over spilt milk is silly but it really does happen!

Student ID Card
Don't forget this, ever! They can save you money here and there that does add up. Be it at the cinema, in Topshop or even at a lot of hair salons, you can get great discounts - just ask at the till. This is money saved that you can put towards a drink on Friday night.. or a book.. I trust your judgment!

Don't Forget
If you are moving far away for Uni you might be restricted with what you can bring the first time you go. Obviously you need to bring clothes for going out and for lectures, but be sure to check what your accommodation provides (pots, pans, utensils, bed linen etc..). I somehow managed to survive for a few weeks with only a sleeping bag so don't sweat it, roughing it won't kill you, though a duvet wouldn't have hurt!

Being Ill
During the first few weeks of Uni all the older students were talking about the “freshers’ bug”. I didn't know what that was until I got it!! You've just been given the key to your very own pad, nobody telling you to eat your greens, lots of big events to attend every night – However, copious amounts of alcohol does eventually catch up with you and that, my friend, is the “freshers’ bug”. Don't say that nobody warned you! In my case, it was the first time I was sick without someone to run around and get everything for me, so I had to face the world head on and drag myself to the nearest pharmacy for the cure!

Reading List
I received all of my reading lists WELL in advance of the course beginning. Did I go and buy them all with excitement? Yes. Did I read even one of them? No. It didn't destroy my grades, but it did mean I had to work a LOT harder during the year to keep up and I definitely won't be leaving it to the last minute this year. Put in a little bit of effort and you will reap the rewards!

Have Fun
University is such a brilliant experience and sometimes it's easy to get bogged down and forget how lucky you are to be there. There's a reason everyone says "I wish I had my Uni/College days back", working in the real world is hard and you probably won't ever have this much freedom again even if you think you're constantly in class or doing assignments, it's probably more fun than working!



Sunday, 8 September 2013

Moving Away From Home

As many people have been posting on Twitter and Facebook about moving away from home for University I decided I'd share my experience with you and hopefully it can settle some nerves! Whether you're moving counties or country, it's still a massive step and it can be really daunting. Once you get over the initial shock of moving you will settle in and it will get easier!

Leaving Secondary School

I moved from Ireland to London the Summer after finishing my Leaving Certificate which is the Irish equivalent of A-Levels. I had my eyes set on the big city. My brother has lived here for years and i was always completely infatuated by the place when I used to visit him. I wrote a blog recently about the types of people you see around london every day that you just don't get in Ireland. They're quirky and individual and just make me love being here. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't easy to move, I really missed home and my friends and family, a lot. It's a huge change moving from your family home and a lot of things change. I've learnt that change is definitely a good thing though. I'm really independent now, I can try my hand at cooking almost anything and most importantly, I've made so many friends here. 

When I first moved I got a bit of a shock and felt like that was it, I was gone forever and I'd never be returning. I had to put things into perspective and think logically, and told myself "come on Anna-Kate! it's only an hour away, you're not in Australia!". I knew that I could go home anytime I wanted, It is only an hours flight and I'll always be welcome. I've been here for over two years now and I still call my house in London "the flat" and my house in Ireland "home", because it is. Knowing this makes it easier to be away and I just look forward to going home and seeing everyone which I can do whenever I want as flights are generally cheap. 

I really believe moving away is going to be as good as you make it. I had my few days of being a bit shocked that I was away from home for the first time ever really and missing my family. Once I let myself relax I really started to enjoy it and eventually I even got to love it. 

My Top Tips

Throw Yourself Into The Experience. 
Don't let nerves or the initial homesickness beat you. Give it everything you have and allow yourself to enjoy it. As I said, I was in total shock when I arrived but once I found my feet I realised how lucky I was to be getting the opportunity to be here. 

Live in Student Halls
This is such a great way to make immediate friends who are all in the same boat as you. They're also safe and some even have fully catered kitchen, so if you're lucky you won't have to cook. I lived in one for my first year here and it definitely made things a lot easier.

Join Societies
Every University has societies from sports, religion, dance, theatre and debate teams and loads more there's no excuses, there's something there for everyone. Even if you don't think you're the best hockey player ever or the most articulate debater still join. The clubs are just for fun and making friends and who knows, you might even surprise yourself and be great! Becoming a part of the University is great not only for your experience and making friends but also for you CV. I ran for class representative and got it! It's invaluable experience and I've gotten to know lots of people I wouldn't have if I didn't do it. It's good to be able to put stuff like that on my CV as it shows I'm well rounded and I get involved. 

Talk to Everyone
Though you may have made friends with people you live with you should still try and make friends in your classes. Just introduce yourself, join in with peoples conversations and just be yourself. I made one of my best friends towards the end of my first year just because I didn't ever think we'd get on until we got talking one day. 

Remember why you're There!
You've moved for a reason, to study! Though you want to have a good time you still need to put in a few hours to up your grades and save your liver. The best thing I've done sounds silly and obvious but just listen in class. You have to attend so you may as well choon in and listen carefully and take notes. It saves on hours of study long term and you won't feel completely bogged down when a deadline or exam is looming.

Make Yourself Feel at Home
I have loads of photos of my friends and family in my room and I brought a few things with me from home that make it feel more homely. I'd suggest downloading Viber or Whatsapp on your phone to chat with family and friends whenever you want for as long as you want for free! I can always grab my phone if I'm missing home and someones bound to lift my spirits!

Author's Intentions Vs Readers Interpretation

Hey Guys, 

This essay was inspired by many hours of debate in University lectures and seminars regardless as to what module it was in so I decided to put my thoughts on paper and share it with you.

In this essay I wish to explore whether it is the author’s intentions or the reader’s interpretation that determines literary meaning. I hope to look at both sides of the argument and draw an overall opinion through understanding the perspectives of others.

As a reader you experience a piece of art. Art is, in fact, subjective at its very core. However, it is also a creation by a person, an author who had some sort of intent for their work. This intent could be to have the audience experience a particular emotion, consider certain subjects, or teach us and give us a certain opinion about a character, place or situation. Most literary theory is based around the idea that a text can take on a life of its very own once it has been written. According to this opinion, any novel or any poem can be complete as it is and it is our interpretation that deciphers what the meaning on the page really is to each of us individually. It is the job of a reader to appreciate and understand what the author’s intent may have been.

Every reader has a different experience of a story and a different interpretation; this is what makes reading so interesting. An author provides a story from which we can take a different meaning to everyone else. Cleanth Brooks believed that “the relevant part of the author’s intention is what he actually got into his work”. When an author writes a piece of work, they don’t just simply record their own rational thoughts for you to take as they are. Instead, a good writer will inevitably and instinctively include all sorts of paths from which we may take meaning completely different to that of another person. It is the reader’s job to analyse and interpret literary meaning and find their own interpretation of the author’s work. The reason that this independence for people to give their own interpretation is so interesting is that sometimes we find meaning that the author themselves are not even aware of. For the reader, the literary meaning is not just a direct expression of an author’s intentions; it is a visible sign of the author’s exact consciousness.

Though an author may have an intention for a text in their conscious minds, the unconscious urges and desires leave indirect messages in their works as well, and it takes careful, creative reading and decoding to understand what a literary work really means. Some critics argue that literary meaning can be derived from more than the expression of a single individual. They believe that it is the product of an era or a community or even a representation of a certain age. From this viewpoint it can be said that literary meaning becomes an exercise in exploring meanings that go beyond the personality or thoughts of just one author.

Language is not just used by people, but language also uses people. Deconstruction explains that we are, born into a world of already existing language and literary meanings. This means that our own interpretation of a piece of work is based around our own understanding of pre existing thoughts, ideas and words. Language allows us to think, describe and understand everything around us. From this perspective, authors exist in an infinite network of prose and individual intention is either an illusion or just another fiction assembled from past fictions and thoughts. The fast changing pace of language and word meaning can sometimes interfere with our interpretation of work from a different epoch.

Shakespeare’s plays become a window into social, cultural and even political issues that may have formed part of his own original intentions. As Shakespeare did not intend on publishing his plays and directed them himself he did not need to write long detailed stage directions or descriptions. As a result of this, his work is open to our own interpretation. As exciting and interesting as that is, it still means that we may be misrepresenting what Shakespeare wanted to portray.

There is simply no way of knowing what Shakespeare’s intentions were, the message he intended to portray or even what he was thinking when he wrote a play. The Merchant of Venice was used by the Nazis to represent an anti-Jewish piece of propaganda. However, most modern interpretations are sympathetic towards Shylock (Martin Yaffe, 1999) this has come from different interpretations of his character by different directors. Throughout the centuries people have seen what they want to see in Shakespeare’s work and we don’t all have to agree on one opinion. The freedom of interpretation can result in controversial perspectives on the literature. In spite of this it could be said that the ambiguity of meaning has kept his work thriving and also keeps it relevant as it can be interpreted to fit almost any time or location that it is read in.
Ernest Hemingway wrote that “books should be judged by those who read them—not explained by the writer.” He also included that asking a writer to explain their works is extremely challenging. He said that you either get no useful information at all, “I don’t know, what do you think it means?” or else you get their own personal interpretation of what they intended for it to mean which leaves us with more questions.  An author’s only real intention is to create a work of art for us to interpret and not to send a ‘message’.

In comparison to this, William K. Wimsatt and Monroe C. Beardsley (1946), wrote an essay on intentional fallacy to explain how it is wrong of us to only consider the author’s own opinion as the last word to define the literary work’s meaning. They said that as authors are not usually around to answer our endless questions and even if they are, their opinions are merely just that, an opinion no more relevant than our own.

The documentary ‘Room 237’ (2012) explores perceived meanings behind the events in the film, ‘The Shining’. Stanley Kubrick’s 1980 adaptation of Stephen King’s novel has brought about ideas and beliefs that neither King nor Kubrick intended to portray. This example leads the vanguard in defining the absolute nature of a novel being interpreted when it is turned into a film. Stephen King has always refused to provide any interpretation of his books beyond the prose, to him the meaning the reader finds is more important than his objective.

When a novel is converted to a film the director’s vision and interpretation of the prose often directly clashes with interpretations of other readers. This is why films based on books are generally perceived in a negative light by people who have different interpretations to that of the film’s director. Notable examples that prove contrary to this include work such as Cormac McCarthy’s ‘No Country for Old Men’ (2005) which is very telegraphed in its intention and difficult to interoperate in any way other than the author’s intention.

Similarly, it can be emphasized that reading literature is not a matter of simply deciphering a message. “Meaning” means having an experience, and that experience is based on the text itself. That is the tightly constructed work of literary art in front of you. Every literary work, for these critics, has its own artistic intentions. It is not the author’s intention that matters; it’s the intention of the work itself and what we interpret as the reader.

On the other hand, literary theory also supports the idea that an author’s original intention does matter. E. D. Hirsch (1967) defended the idea of authorial intention as essential to a proper understanding of any literary work, “a text means what its author meant.” According to Hirsch, you would need to study an author’s letters and background carefully in order to get at the “aims and attitudes” that signal the original intention of the author to convey the correct literary meaning. Hirsch distinguished between the objective “meaning” of a text, only available through exhaustive research and the “significance” of a work which is what the work means to a reader, without the need for in-depth study.

It is suggested that reading literary work can give us the chance to recreate not only the author’s intention but the author’s consciousness in our own minds. These critics saw literature as a material, a form of consciousness that you the reader can explore. From this perspective, you are able to form opinions and make judgments about the authors’ lives and worldviews through their works. Given all this, literary theory suggests that an author’s intention is just one aspect of appreciating literature, and it’s an aspect that people treat in many different ways. You could say that reading literature is really an exercise in performing literature silently in your head. When we deliver the lines of a novel we aren’t interested in finding out the original stage directions of the work, instinctively we read it as a free-form, impromptu text in our heads.

A book does not exist for the benefit of the author; the book exists for the benefit the reader. This means that the reader can extract their own interpretation to get the literary meaning without the author’s direction or opinion impeding. If after reading a book you feel as though you have gotten something from it, be it personal growth, knowledge or compassion from your own interpretation then that book has been a success and the authors own intentional meaning should not change your opinion.

(Richard Badenhausen, 2004) T.S Eliot was of the opinion that an author should always depersonalise their own experiences when writing and that readers should approach a text impersonally, this is a very difficult task. Authorial intention is of course useful in understanding a text however, the literary meaning of a text should be interpreted on what an author has written.  E.D Hirsch says that this does not stop a text’s meaning from being ambiguous or philosophical. It could be said that Eliot’s poetry has somewhat of an incomplete meaning but infinite capacity for evaluation.

Comparatively, unconscious intention can influence a meaning that is sensitive to the language of the time of writing and can be interoperated differently nowadays. The meaning created by an author be it intentional or not can create historical gaps, also change of social and psychological norms create a bridge that allows us to create our own meaning even if we ‘carefully’ dissect the authors work. Therefore, you could say that the best meaning of a text is that which we create as individuals and is also what makes thinking critically about other people’s prose so interesting.

It could be said that an author’s intention is useful for deciding what the validity of other people’s interpretations of a text. No interpretation can be judged as correct or incorrect, but the author’s intention is a normative opinion against which probability can be gauged. Some critics believe that interpretation should be based around what is unquestionably in a text and that only critics should read between the lines to avoid misunderstanding texts. You could contend however, that because all texts are incomplete in some form, we should always try to read deeper and include our own interpretation of a piece of art to find out the literary meaning.

As students of English Literature we are taught to dig deeper and to form our own opinions of other peoples work and be critical. Through careful consideration and research I have come to the realisation that it is the reader’s interpretation that is important when trying to determine the literary meaning of a text. Eliot once said, “History has many cunning passages, contrived corridors” this implies that nothing is more subjective than the truth and the reader’s interpretation says more than an author could ever express. Therefore, interpretation is led by the author’s intent but in the case of ambiguity, meaning is derived and interpreted through the personal experience of the reader. 



Friday, 6 September 2013

Things I've Been Loving

It's Friday!

I've had a pretty boring week at home as I've had a chest infection, the joy! So I've mostly been sat in wasting time which I am great at! I watched Magic Mike, which was really disappointingly crap! I've finally started my reading list for Uni and bought lots of books from Amazon. As I study English Lit I obviously have to get a huge amount of books which ends up costing a lot by the end of the year. There's been one or two fairly niche books that I haven't managed to get on Amazon. Other then that, they have everything and for less than half the price of a high street book store as you can get used books. Just FYI for any Uni newbies! Anyway, here's some of the stuff that have kept me happy and sane this week - Enjoy! 

I got this Graze box today, in the post. They're meant to be a set of 'healthy' snacks that you can eat throughout the week instead of snacking on junk food. If I'm honest, I've eaten almost three of them since receiving it this morning. If you can contain yourself to eating just one packet every few days as your only snack then more power to you! 

                   

The Super Berry Detox and Cheddar Gorge were both really nice - the Summer berry compote, not so much! I think these boxes are great if you can have them delivered to where you work for lunch as they are a good way to escape eating 15 chocolate biscuits, not that I would ever do that..



Last night I went out to my favourite pub in London, La Brocca in West Hampstead. It's really cool and laid back, jazz music playing, the best Pizzas ever and a good selection of drinks! A few ciders later this happened. I'm going to justify eating this as I needed it for hangover prevention. 

                     

I've been using these John Frieda products for just over a week now and they have genuinely made my hair look brighter. I wouldn't say they are very moisturising but I would recommend them for anyone who wants to give their hair a little boost! Expect brighter, highlighted looking hair, not silky smooth conditioned hair. They're currently half price (around £4 each) in most drugstores in London, at least. 

                   

Since I found out that Siri does this I have been completely obsessed with Googling "Questions to ask Siri", this is my favourite one! I can't help but ask him questions before sleeping every night. I realise how sad that is now that I've written it down but hey, I like sharing with you!

                                        

I found out that I have asthma this week and was given this childrens contraption to learn how to use the inhaler. I apparently have to carry this around all the time now, which is great considering its so handbag friendly? Glasses and an inhaler all in one month. I sure am glad I'm no longer in primary school, work it Anna-Kate, embrace your inner nerd!

             

A few months ago i discovered 'Sleepytime Tea'. As well as being a very cute name it was really nice. I drank it every night before going to bed, having convinced myself that it would help me sleep faster. Placebo tea, you fooled me! The sleepytime tea was just camomile tea with clever marketing, so I got this Twinings one instead which also has honey in it. It's really nice and just makes me feel warm and a little bit better. A little bit like hot chocolate at Christmas but with less calories!

                                       

And finally, I got an audible account this week. I decided I'd try out an audiobook that I can listen to at night time instead of watching Breaking Bad in bed. The urge to marathon the series is not exactly conducive to sleeping! A lot of my friends say they listen to audio books when they are driving which is actually a great idea. You get one free book in your first month as a trail so you can always cancel it if it's not for you, what have you got to lose?

I'm hoping I have a more productive weekend and actually do someone outside of the house!

What have you been liking this week? Have a nice weekend! 

Monday, 2 September 2013

How is Stigma Attached to Illness explored in Literature?

Hey Guys, 

I recently posted an essay I wrote on Blade Runner and Metropolis and decided I would share another. I read a book called 'PWA - Looking Aids in the Face' by Oscar Moore a few months ago. The book is comprised of many articles that Moore wrote on his experience with Aids. The book inspired me to write this essay on how stigma attached to illness is explored in literature
 
Stigma can be defined as, “The shame or disgrace attached to something regarded as socially unacceptable.” (Stead, 2013) Those who feel stigmatised are made feel outcast and are marked as being different in some way that impacts on them negatively. It is a powerful tool that takes social control and can marginalise, exclude, reject and dangerously implement power over people and ruin their lives. The feeling is often created due to a person believing that they have brought shame upon themselves in some way. In this essay I intend to discuss the effect that stigma has on the diseased body and the disjunction of body and mind that is caused by stigma as explored in literature.

Once HIV was discovered by scientists, social responses of fear, denial, stigma and discrimination accompanied the epidemic. Because of this, discrimination against people living with HIV rapidly spread, fuelling anxiety and prejudice against sufferers and their families. It is fair to say that people with HIV suffer not only from the physical and medical concerns the disease brings but also the social stigma attached to having ‘contracted’ HIV. The body becomes a vehicle of stigma and is eventually separated from the mind. This means that people no longer feel in control of their body and lose control of the future that once was. The feeling of having no control of a disease that is essentially eating your body alive can transgress between body and mind and can confound the codes between morality, suffering, sickness and health. As a consequence of this, people are labelled as being ‘sick’ and become separated from their ‘normal’ social world.

Often, people living with HIV are seen as shameful as the infection is sometimes associated with minority groups or behaviours such as homosexuality, drug use and prostitution. In some societies, HIV is seen as the result of personal irresponsibility. There are approximately 96,000 people living with HIV today in the UK (National AIDS Trust). There is a stigma and discrimination associated with sufferers the world over. Many of whom have been rejected by their families, their loved ones and often by their communities. Therefore, people who feel infected are made feel alienated as they have contracted the disease and feel that it is punishment for their behaviour. Societal pressure and the implication that they have acted irresponsibly with their bodies’ adds to the pressure that the person condemns themselves with.
While writing “AIDS and its Metaphors”, (1979) Susan Sontag draws on her own experiences as a cancer patient, as well as her friendships with people affected by AIDS. The message Sontag portrays is that friendships, despite possible fallibility, can be strong and resilient even in times of crisis. The story suggests that conversation can quite literally create a healing environment mentally.  Sontag suggests that the mind and a positive environment can transcend the diseased body. The negative effects of stigma have repercussions on both body and mind and this highlights the duality of the two.

Similarly to Sontag’s essay, “Philadelphia” 1993 directed by Jonathan Demme, explores ethical and moral issues manifested by AIDS and its relationship with homosexuality. It suggests that AIDS is seen as a crime against the self. The film gives us an insight in to people who believed punishment was the only viable resolution for the ‘promiscuous conduct’ that is often associated with AIDS. The character Beckett laughs at his Lawyer Miller’s TV commercial when he is in hospital, saying “if you or someone you know has been injured through the fault of others, you may be entitled to legal remedy” (Philadelphia, 1993). This is an ironic reaction to a statement that questions the innocence of the ill and even blames them. In the context of HIV, the implication of Miller’s advert is essentially that if your pain and suffering has been caused by another person and not yourself, then you may be entitled to legal redress. This may well imply that the people who transmit HIV to an individual can be deemed ‘guilty’ – which is in contrast to Miller’s own views on homosexuality. Demme uses the term “negligence of other” (Philadelphia, 1993) in court. In legal terms ‘negligence’ can mean carelessness and in Beckett’s case, it refers to irresponsible actions which a person could essentially avoid. This is a way to incorporate a sense of guilt and blame on AIDS victims as they spread the disease.

The image of AIDS portrayed as a crime in Philadelphia is depicted also in Sontag’s essay “AIDS and Its Metaphors”. Sontag’s essay shows us society’s use of military to describe illness as a type of invasion against the body, and our efforts to stop the spread of the disease as a war. Such an idea can imply the use of force and violence. In her essay, Sontag suggests that society judges the ill diseased body and labels them as either guilty or innocent. She states that, “innocence, by the inexorable logic that governs all relational terms, suggests guilt.” (Sontag, p.99). Sontag is insinuating that society describes AIDS in two ways. The actual illness can be seen as an invasion of the body, however when the focus is transmission, a different image is invoked – pollution of the body. This in turn can segregate between healthy people and those who endanger their purity with the chance of disease or pollution. 

Likewise, in ‘Philadelphia’ we see the segregation between the diseased body and the healthy body. When Beckett is called into a conference room by his work colleagues, Demme shows us an obvious divide between Beckett’s seat and where his employers are sitting by getting clever camera shots of them. This division between them shows us the negative feelings of the law firm and sets a tense scene for firing Beckett.  We see a contrived divide between society and AIDS sufferers that is clearly depicted through the judgmental looks from the lawyers as they assume promiscuous behaviour and homosexuality as the cause of Beckett contracting AIDS, thus putting blame on him.

In Philadelphia, we see discrimination against Beckett because of his AIDS once the physical effects of his illness become impossible to hide and the law firm fire him as they fear that his disease will affect their clients. The two main behaviours and therefore lifestyles that are often linked to the transmission of AIDS are homosexuality and drug use. Both groups were repressed and let down by society when Philadelphia was produced as well as when Sontag’s essay was published. Sontag describes AIDS as indulgences and “addictions to chemicals that are illegal and to sex regarded as deviant”. (Sontag, p.113)

The first outbreak of AIDS left society terrified of being infected by the illness itself and also worried people about the transmissions of ‘sins’ attached to having AIDS. When Beckett meets Miller at his office they share a mutual respect of one another until Beckett tells Miller that he has AIDS. This leads to Miller physically moving away from Beckett and he takes note of everything he touches in his office. Demme focuses the camera on the objects that Beckett touches rather than focusing on the men’s facial expressions. Instead we are shown brief shots of Miller looking very judgmental and weary of Beckett. This scene shows how people with AIDS are met with uncertainty and sometimes fear. Within a matter of seconds Beckett goes from being equal to Miller to being inferior.

AIDS, unlike most diseases, does not just infect random individuals, instead, it is thought of and seen to be a consequence of a person’s actions. Because AIDS is sexually transmitted, it is easy to connect the disease to images of the ‘Plague’ or in Sontag’s case a war (Sontag, p.76. The disease is sent as a punishment against those who participate in deviant behaviour which creates stigma for a sufferer. One main problem portrayed in Philadelphia was the lack of empathy society had towards people infected with AIDS, due to the promiscuous actions associated with the disease. We see Miller talking to his wife about his confusion regarding homosexuality. He has consoled himself with the belief that he is fighting the case for Beckett as he does not agree with discrimination in general rather than the disease itself.
The stigma attached to AIDS often engrosses people to the point where they forget that the person is suffering. Because of this, they are not quite as sympathetic as they would be with a person who has a disease that they could not perhaps have prevented. Sontag laments that these actions sadly seem to be the values of society. During the initial outbreak of AIDS, many people viewed homosexuality as a type of crime against what nature had intended for the infected body. The followers of many religions believe that homosexuality is to be regarded as an act of sin that deserves some kind of punishment. As a result of this, AIDS is sometimes seen as a punishment for immoral conduct that an individual chooses to take part in.

In Oscar Moore’s ‘PWA – Looking AIDS in the Face’ (1996) we are given an account of his daily battle with HIV and the way in which he coped with not only the illnesses effects on his body but his encounters with society. The perception of his body by people in his life made him feel like an outcast because of his illness. Moore’s original diagnosis was HIV. Years later he was to discover that the atrocious pain that he was experiencing in his stomach was not caused by his excessive lifestyle of consuming extreme amounts of cocaine and ecstasy but by the transition to AIDS and the development of shingles in his guts as part of that transition. To him this meant that he was no longer a person, he was no longer Oscar Moore; he was now a ‘Person with AIDS’.
Sontag’s ‘Illness as Metaphor’ (1978) was written when she was a cancer patient herself which opened her eyes to the world of illness and the impact it can have on more than just your body. The book shows how perceived ideas and myths surrounding certain illnesses can add massively to the patients suffering through creating unnecessary stigma. Sontag’s liberating approach to illness is similar to that of Oscar Moore. She shows us cancer for what it really is, just a disease, a disease that can become part of your body, and not something to be ashamed of or detach yourself from.

Sontag wished to show us that cancer is not a curse or a punishment for a ‘sin’ and that it should certainly not be an embarrassment or bring shame to the sufferer. Sontag discusses the term ‘cancer personality’ that she came across while she was ill. She discusses the blame and stigma such language can create for the patient and believed that such a negative term impedes on the patient’s recovery. Instead she preferred to use the term ‘disease-producing lifestyle’ to describe both the physical and mental changes that cancer patients often quite understandably go through when they are ill. Labelling people as having ‘cancer personality’ (Sontag p.48) makes them become the disease rather than seeing them as a person with a diseased body.

When a patient is diagnosed with a stigmatised disease it can be treated as a malevolent, undefeatable predator and not something a patient feels they can overcome. In turn, people with stigmatised diseases will be demoralised and defeated by their illness. Sontag believed that the only way to rectify this problem would be to demystify the disease and give people a better understanding of what a person’s body is actually going through so that ill people do not have to feel outcast by their own bodies. Sontag believed that demystifying the illness would remove the stigma and this would alleviate the guilt, blame and shame that sufferers so often render upon themselves.

Similarly, Oscar Moore opened his life to the public with his journal in ‘The Guardian’ in a plight to open people’s eyes to the reality of a person with AIDS, and the physical suffering they can go through. If it is perceived that someone has done something previously that contributed to their illness, they often feel stigmatised. The idea of having ‘caught’ or ‘contracted’ an illness contributes to people stigmatising sufferers as they believe that the illness is their own doing. We see how dramatically AIDS erodes Moore’s body leading to his death in ‘Looking AIDS in the Face’. Moore does not feel sorry for himself, he writes his journal with unflinching honesty and a wry, black humour, as he charted his body’s physical descent.

The main culprits that create stigma are often the media. Governments use propaganda which could be construed as unscrupulous as they use fear to imply the risk of smoking. They use images of diseased lungs and harsh taglines such as “Smoking Kills” and “Smoking seriously harms you and others around you”. These No Smoking campaigns don’t acknowledge the feelings of guilt, shame and blame that they enforce on people who are suffering from diseases. Lung cancer is an illness that so often receives negative attitudes creating stigma as they are often believed to have contributed to their cancer. Though the body is suffering, the ill person does not feel entitled to empathy or even entitled to suffer. In the series ‘Breaking Bad’ people comment on how Walter White got lung cancer but never actually smoked, perhaps implying that if he had smoked he would have deserved the illness.

A 2009 German AIDS awareness group, Regenbogen released an advert using images of famous world dictators such as Adolf Hitler and Saddam Hussein to convey the message “AIDS is a mass murderer”. This advert used shock imagery to make people fear contracting the disease. This advert was attacked by the HIV charity Terrence Higgins Trust as they believed that the advert would stigmatise people who already have the disease. This advert is a prime example of the negativity adverts can exude that does nothing but increase people’s fear of contracting HIV and is more likely to discourage people from being tested. In the UK, one in four people who have HIV is not aware that he or she has it and negative reinforcement is likely to deter people from wanting to be tested. HIV is no longer a death sentence in the developed world as treatment is widely available and allows people with HIV to live a healthy life. This advert is indicative of the stigma attached to HIV. Most propaganda does not promote any positivity and proliferation of stigma without encouraging safe sex leads to the feeling of disenfranchisement of those who already have the disease.

A culture of shame is often brought upon people with HIV because contracting HIV is often believed to be associated with acts that some cultures see as immoral or abhorrent behaviour. By blaming certain people associated with HIV, society can excuse itself from the responsibility of caring for such groups of ill people. Because of this, sufferers often feel excluded from society and allow the disease to be transformed from an affliction of the body to an affliction of the mind.

In today’s society people have a heightened sensitivity regarding the language they use when talking about a person with a mental or physical disability. The ‘r’ word campaign was launched in 2007 to stop people using the word ‘retard’ as a derogatory term. The Spastic Society also changed their name to Scope to prevent people from labelling and stigmatising people with cerebral palsy due to the adoption of the word ‘spastic’ as a derogatory term. The main inspiration for the change of these names was because mentally and physically disabled people did not want to be labelled or seen differently – they wanted to be treated equally. When it comes to being ill, people are put into categories through use of language. When we talk about the diseased body and AIDS in particular we use words like ‘contracted’, ‘infected’ and ‘caught’ which all insinuate blame. The physical disabilities that people are born with or develop are the same as AIDS in their immutability, the only difference is the stigma attached to AIDS victims.

Oscar Moore identifies with this when he becomes a ‘Person with AIDS’. He talks about nurses referring to his ward as the ‘naughty boys ward’ (Moore, 1996, p.28 ). Moore introduces us to his world, the ward in a Glasgow hospital where as a gay man with AIDS, he was treated with great distain by the nurses. ‘Accentuate the positive; accessorise the negative” was Moore’s saying which almost suggests that his ever growing collection of medication, syringes and his ‘Hickman line’ had become part of his body. Moore tried to stop the connotations of having AIDS from integrating into his personality despite the stigma. Moore's writing was distinguished by its light-hearted humour, and the brave enlightened way in which he shared his story with the reader until his death.

AIDS quite literally led Moore into darkness when the virus slowly destroyed his eyes and eventually completely took his vision, "Blind terror” (Moore, 1996, p.163). Moore uses his column as a weapon to both fight the virus and the stigma attached to it. Though HIV can obliterate a body enough to render medicine useless, it does not prevent those suffering from it from fighting back intellectually. Not only did Moore’s journal help him fight his own battle, they also greatly contributed to the battle against ignorance and homophobia surrounding AIDS.

In Victorian England, the stigma of getting a disease could transcend class. Dickens used smallpox as a tool in ‘Bleak House’ to prove that illness is more than a physical disease but instead a type of ethical illness which was infecting English Victorian society (Dickens, p.113). Dickens’ aim was to show through disease that all people are in fact vulnerable to catching a disease or illness regardless of their class or background. The diseased body effectively levels the playing field by exposing the vulnerability of the body and its separation from a person’s moral standing, class or nature. This understanding of disease is similar to the conclusion that is reached by Miller in Philadelphia when he decides to fight for Beckett.

In ‘Philadelphia’, the idea that AIDS is almost a crime committed by the AIDS sufferer inflicts feelings of guilt, shame and blame upon infected people. Sontag states that “the shame” associated with AIDS is “linked to an imputation of guilt”. Similarly, in the song ‘Philadelphia’ and in Moore’s writing, we are painted a picture of the struggle that people with AIDS feel. The lyrics of the eponymous song ‘Philadelphia’ read, “Tell me I’m not to blame, I won’t be ashamed of love” - this captures the struggle a homosexual can be faced with when his disease physically displays itself to the world without his say in the matter. The implication of the song is that he wishes to be himself and not be ashamed about his illness or who it is that he chooses to love.

In ‘Philadelphia’ Beckett’s previously hidden sexuality is revealed when his law firm become aware that he is ill after his body lets him down. Comparatively, the way in which AIDS sufferers’ sexuality is made obvious through their illness, “illness flushes out an identity that might have remained hidden” (Fisher, p.111). The uncontrollable nature of the disease means that not only is a victim of AIDS suffering with the medical aspect of the illness, they are also faced with people knowing their personal identity.

Through understanding the way that the owner of a diseased body is made feel by stigma we can better understand the blurring of the boundaries between body and mind. The work of Oscar Moore in putting to paper his personal account of a disease that may be considered the most stigmatised in human history highlights the difference between the diseased body and the individual. Stigma attached to AIDS is due to the lack of understanding and the culture of mass media. Sontag’s exploration of stigma and illness examines the effects of society and more importantly how a person’s loved ones can have a profound effect on the suffering person’s future. She believed that the diseased body should not be treated as a reflection of the character of the person and understanding this at a fundamental level would help to alleviate stigma. (Sontag, p.80) ‘Philadelphia’ uses the culture of mass media to create awareness of the plight of those affected with HIV/AIDS. It casts in iron the unreasonable discrimination that is brought down upon those who have been condemned to a lifetime of suffering from a disease for which there is no cure.

The shocking nature of these texts violently brings the issues that surround stigma and discrimination to the public conscious. The dissonance between mind and body is emphasised by exploration of the diseased body and the way it is perceived. Societal perception of the diseased body has a stronger influence than personal perception. This damages the sufferers sense of self and removes the sense of control from the sufferers own body. The similarity between the treatments of diseases in these texts emphasises the deep rooted nature of the issue. The constant nature of stigma and its attachment to disease and the unknown can be traced back as far as Victorian England and beyond. This perhaps alludes to the subconscious instincts of protectiveness that makes up human nature.




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